September 13th, 2005

Icy Background

To have IS to hold...

Tell me. What does that say to you? It popped into my head while I was having a wash, and I like it. It's an obvious variation of "To have and to hold." I think that I might work it into a song I'm writing. I've got the tune, but Claire wasn't able to put good words to it. So I'm going to. I need to.

I need to get something out of my system, and I don't know what. But I think I know what I want to say with this song, so it's do-able.

Actually, I think I know pretty well what's going on here. But I still want to try and commit it to song.

In other news, I really have watched far too much Love Hina lately. See, the problem is if I watch too much romancy stuff, it tends to affect me. Make me feel lonely because I'm watching it alone. Afterwards I have to be careful what I say and do. Actually, it's not just romance. Many things manage to resonate with my soul. Various books have left me feeling so drawn in that I think I'm the main character after I put the book down. What I mean is that I feel like I live in their world, not this one, and I can do the things that they can do. Music does it sometimes, but in a different way. I reckon that if you got together all my favorite things and the things that soul-resonate with me, you'd be able to call me into your presence even if I'm dead. And if I'm alive? You might get a clone...

I'm remembered in Emma's will! Which is kinda cool, yet somewhat...well, not morbid, but scarily prepared... But Emma, take care of yourself, as I know for sure that for the next few years I'm not going to be able to afford a plane to Canada to attend your funeral. Claire probably would be able to afford it, but I wouldn't. So don't die, k? Besides, I'd miss you a lot.

I need some sleep. I feel a bit funny - is it hunger, sleep deprivation or the dull ache of a lonely heart? I think it's hunger, to be honest, but I've cleaned my teeth, so so much for that.